都是习惯惹的祸

我喜欢McDonald多过KFC，因为黄色的M字比较美。
常常想念Latte，却点了cappuccino。

反反复复，好像在我身上发生了很多次相同的处境
我始终不能随心所欲

有时候，取舍之间，只是习惯在作祟。
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一个晚上，在一个小时之内，看了三场烟花表演。
一开始：" 哇。。好漂亮。。。"
第二次：" 快快快，结束的那朵是最美的."
第三次：快点啦，站都站到脚酸了，下次不看了"
后来，还有第四场，我还是看了。

眷恋着的也会有厌倦的一天，只是那时种下习惯，却怎么也挥散不去。
不是习惯不好，而是它却成了我逐梦的绊脚石。

Calm seas never make skillful sailors

calm seas never make skillful sailors
I came across the above quote this morning,
and I have to say that it suits my mind-set at this moment so well.
I guess most of us are petrified by failure that we even fail before we try.

This is November, and as those who've been with me awhile know,
that is my hectic month. Handling both internaland external stuff.
and doing something that i never dare to do-training.
My working path was not a smooth sailing ones
at times i met a lot of problems and fell into deep frustration.
But i know that's where i learn to be tougher
and that's why the quote above snagged my interest.

Big risks mean big successes or big failures?
But guess what I've discovered?
The failure is not taking the risks.
what it means is -
that there is no failure in anything we feel compelled to do
The real failure that lies beneath is to bury our desire to do it.

I'm a total failure.. haha

Yes, Come What May!!!

Through endless burden to bear
and countless other hidden fares
when price of growing is too high to tear
and complexity comes along the way
when stressful time goes on night and day
and sorrow welcomes herself to stay
come what may
i will hold it till my dying days

Through hopes i see sunrise
anticipating what lies beyond mind
Yet i go on with staggering fear
for someday my dreams will never appear
I shouldnt say tears are hard to forbear
on stumbling steps i'll find my way
come what may
i'll hold it till my dying days

希望明天会更好

事与愿违！！！ 好无奈

好怀念去年年终的那段日子。。
有一群天真无瑕的小孩子
陪我度过了一段假期
让我找回自己
让我找回快乐

让我徘徊的心，有了去向
让我跌进谷里的心情，再次升天
现在，我的避风港在哪？
偶尔，只能听听歌
偶尔，也想向友人诉诉苦
偶尔，想去兜车吹吹风

可惜，没有歌听得入耳
可惜，友人不了解我
可惜，汽油太贵了

迷失的船

Dance with My Father

Back when I was a child,
before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me
and then Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love,
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love,
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

By Luther Vandross

红豆

--王菲的红豆。。--

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖
会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以後学会珍惜
天长和地久
有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

Parting, is such a sweet sorrow

We meet someone thoughout our travel
and become close.
They could be friends, dates, lovers.
Always, we are distanced again
parted from death, geographical barrier or seeing others.
Only memories left beneath the hidden souls.

Parting
is such a sweet sorrow
it could never bring a smile to one's face
it could never stop your tears from streaming
but it is an anticipation to reunite again.
somewhere
sometime

later..

Me and My fear

I have been doing the same thing everyday.
I go to work and back to work and in between,
i chatted along with friends.
I heard many stories,
I felt many things from the stories i heard.
And i told myselfi can be what i want to be.

I believe i can be anything i want to be
if i work hard enough at it, but that isn't true.
To achieve mastery in anything, you have to
have abundant talent, ambition and interest.
Most of us have some combination of talent,
ambition and interest in many things,
but in very few of these things,
do we ever achieve the holy blend of all three?
In the past, I used to have lots of interest and ambition.
Unfortunately,
I have been distracted and getting myself out of the path,
but i dont begrudge the fact that my meager talent for
drawing never seem to match my huge ambition and interest in it.

The only problem is could i let go the life i'm having now
and face a totally different one in the future?
Everytime i try to picture myself in even 5 years time,
it seems vague to me.
I have no idea if i have the courage to let go everything
that im indulge in to pursue something which does
not seem to be as promising as now.

I fear my fear will overcome my passion.

我无所谓

天天都有落叶特别是今夜
当沙沙的风吹每一片叶掉一滴泪
夜夜有人心碎他们相信谁
当爱被解了约作何感觉
莫非无尤也无悔
依旧痴痴收藏落叶
傻的心傻到哭也流不出泪
我无所谓我冷若冰淡若水
我不为梦留一点空侵掠我紧闭心扉
当感情是唯一解不开的结
而人爱听谁伤了谁
我愿是风中飘然轻落的叶
我无所谓我伤过心掉过泪
我只在乎爱本无罪
何苦要陷入重围
当世界被感情蒙上一曾灰
而我宁愿是最後的落叶

My prescription of negative attitude

I always give myself a lot of excuses not to do something , or trying to delay something. Procrastination is becoming part of me. I am not sure whether it is growing like a cancerous cell, but it really does affect me alot. I dislike this feeling.

I dont know how many projects I have participated in where my expectations were low sometimes. Almost without exception, my results parallel my expectations and my expectations reflect my preparation. But the real challenge here is to maintain a positive attitude even when everything is not right.

The list of excuses that detract me from excellent performance is almost endless. It runs the gamut from the ridiculous to the sublime. Below is my prescription of negative attitude :))

1. I havnt got time to eat.
2. I have no time to pig
3. My mouse is not working.
4. Today is a bad hair day, I have no mood to work.
5. My eyesight isn't right today
6. The task is not important to me.
7. My pc is a jerk.
8. I had a bad stomach ache.
9. The music doesn't suit my mood.
10. I can do it tomorrow, tomorrow is always good :D

很多的事

随着年级的增加，事情不会再像小時候一樣单纯。
自己的事，不会因为对方是你的好友而坦承。
感情的事，不会因为双方彼此有好感而决定在一起。
未來的事，不会因为周密计划而順序渐进。
過去的事，不会因为選擇遺忘而走出记憶。
於是我们学会了 ......
在朋友前说话有所保留，为了不傷害大家的情谊。
对喜欢的人不投入所有的感情，害怕爱得越深以后会伤得更深。
对未來的不确定性，提出备案
对过去的记憶加上封印，但是伤痛却成了阴影。
成人的世界很复杂，想保留那分纯真的我時候在自讨苦吃 !!

爱与回忆

不用有人说，我们也真实感觉到人与人之间的爱已经越来越薄弱了，或许是我们不善于表达吧。

我喜欢温馨有爱的故事，无论是父爱、母爱、友爱、男女之间的爱、兄弟姐妹的爱都能让我感受到我生存的意义，可惜没有东西是永久的。但我此刻相信有一种爱是永恒的。

那时真爱。

即使是一个亲密的人离开了你，心里头的那份感情是永恒不变的，只是不能具体地表现出来，而让我们误以为爱也随着人死了而离开。

我有时会惶恐，在未来的日子里，你们的亲切笑容和熟悉的身影，会否渐渐在我千篇一律的天天里变成乏人问津的模糊背景？就像是那看似越去越远的云烟，依然存在但却遥不可及。
害怕有一天，但你们一个个都离开了，剩下的几乎只是我那几十年生命里的回忆。难道人的一生在最后一刻，留下的只能是回忆吗？

我不知道，希望在将来的日子里寻找更多美丽的回忆。

Candy House

Today, I chatted with my high school best friend, whom i sat with for 3 long years. We shared some odd dreams. I intended to write down here.

This morning, she told me she wished to have a little home that she could decorate and cook in a nice kitchen. I told her i wanted a small cottage, like the one in Hansel and Gretel, a candy house. I wished the cottage was made of rocks or woods, can be bricks also, but the bricks shall not be painted, if it would to be painted, it has to look colorful, like candy. I will feel happier if i live in a colorful house.

I told her too that I wished i live in a candy house and made nice warm soup everyday, like a witch...Witches always make soup, their portion! Haha...but my soup is soup of love. Lovely herbal soups that make us strong and healthy. My friend thinks I'm going crazy, ahhaha... but I really love to cook soup. I want a small and comfortable home where i can make delicious food everyday... I enjoy food :p

Actually, I know, sometimes my dreams are ridiculous. But i just want to dream so that my concentration is not on my sadness, dreams could push away your sorrow, temporary. And then, we have hope once again, in our lives.

My Convocation - Day 2

Today, I woke up rather late. It is usual for me to wake up late at home, because they bed is too soft, the pillows are too warm. I couldn't resist myself. When i got up, the breakfast is ready, oh..this will never happen to me back to the place where i work, cause i have got to do everything all by myself.

I forget what i did in the morning, in fact I planned to spend this day with my mother, who somehow, can be said single handedly raised me up. Unfortunately, in the afternoon.. I got a text message from my friend asking if I would join them to see the convocation of our ex groupmates back then in foundation year. Surprisingly, I said ok, and left all my plans behind. I thought, maybe just an hour or two would be fine.

After all the photo shooting, and brief conversations with them.. I was wondering, on that actual day of my convo, will they be coming, of cos the answer is no. because, by then all of them would be rushing home. The thought of it made me rather sad. It would be my last chance to see them. I was glad that i decided to come after all.

At 7 something, one of my friends said they do not know where to go as some of the people in the gang has already left, and they do not have any plans. Out of simpathy, I relunctantly promised them that I will bring them around. Thinking that I had to let go my plans with my mother, I feel rather disappointed, and I actually told her that I was so sure I will come back home for dinner. Sometimes, i mean all the time... things don't go the way you plan, why? For 22 years i live, i still have no answer to that. ha ha

Anyway, I told them that I do not want to drive.. yes, in fact i hate driving, i hate parking. I would do anything to avoid that... Haha what a selfish person i am... So, we went to another friend's house to get her car because there were only one car and we had 7 people with us. After waiting for my friend to clean up and dress up, we then headed to Peranakan Restaurant. Yeah, it was local food, the baba and nyonya delight. By the time we reach there, it was already 9 something. The people said the kitchen was closing. How could they treat us like that? Nevermind, we waited for them to check with the chef. Then, finally they let the 7 little hungry dwarfs to dine in :D.. But they gave us the bill before we finished our meals... bad service!

Later, we had a stroll at jonker street. I could tell that the entire street was flooded with MMU students... yes, Malacca is small... but this street is warm, it brings so many people from different parts of the world to a little town which used to be a huge empire. We met many of the old friends there, it can be said that this place brings a lot of strangers together as well as reunite the long lost friends.

We chatted, laughed from the front to the back of the street. We were crazy. Then, we got thirsty, we sat down at a small stall for desert! Yeah, it was great.
The night ended like that.

Will this be our final gathering? I hope not.... :(

My Convocation - Day 1

I have been looking forward to my convocation ever since i got a job. Why?
It's not because i get to declare myself as graduate, not because i get to wear the smart looking robe, not because i get to bow to siti hasmah...
It's because, I get to see all my friends again, and take a final snap shot with them.
On friday morning, 5th of August, I woke up at 5am and prepared to leave to my sweet home town, Malacca. We had planned many things ahead, we planned to eat dimsum as breakfast, therefore we had to leave earlier.

But too bad, some friends came rather late and we got to wait for them...
I drove at 110 - 120 km/s on the rather deserted highway as it was early in the morning. It actually felt good. But i remained silent for the whole trip, because i wanted to concentrate on vehicles next to me... there might be some drunken drivers.
At last we reached malacca and picked up Jacky at King's hotel and then headed to my favourite yong tau fu for breakfast, too bad we couldn't eat dimsum as we were running late.
At 9 something, we went to the rehearsal, a uselss rehearsal which wasted our time. There were no parking and we got to park at some rocky fields. Yikes... it really ruined my car! I hate mmu!
Then we went to verify and test our smart card, collect the "smart" robe... and do tones of stuff that took away the entire afternoon. Finally... i sent my friends to the condo they are staying.

At 4.30, i managed to get back home to have a quick shower...but oh my goodness... I locked the door to my own room and the car keys were inside! Such a forgetful pig I am... But thank goodness the carkeys were left near the window. It took me some time to hook it out and grab my friend's shoes out of the car, because...it 's time for studio photo shooting. Yeah~
The photographer was a professional man. He wanted to portray a perfect graduation photo for us and therefore he has strict demands on the way we smile, the way we stand etc... I couldn't believe we took 3 hours for photo shooting. We didn't even have our dinner. 15 hungry youngsters.

Tired, hungry i felt. We then ate fried oyster, wan tan mee...yummy...Nice delicious dinner..
Tang tang tang...time to go back home lo..... Lead them back to their condo, we took some pictures... and rushed back home to sleep. My gosh..i was so exhausted.... Lie straightly to slumberland. I miss you, my bed~!

Time to relax

Thinking back when i was a kid, i like to talk to myself....
I guess all the kids do that, they talk to themselves, or their imaginary self.
We imagined we are someone else, it was quite fun. And then you played two different characters.
Yeah, if adult does that, you would have thought he had gone nuts. But kids are different, they have their way to express their creativity, and to let their imagination run wild, so when we are still young, it's good we try different things, different crazy things.
At least, when we are old, there's something to look back, some happy wild memories to smiled at. and we will find how contented we are to our lives. It wouldn't be marvellous without a few times running in the rain, riding on a pony backwards, skipping a few times classes just to get a signature of ur favourite pop star. It doesn't matter, just a few times ;)
but, well... have we ever tried that? No, or maybe yes..but not that daring... because we are very self cautious asians. Maybe, it's time to relax... Life is beautiful, you know...

My Romance

My romance doenst need a waltz under the starry night
together counting the stars that shine so bright..
or having dinner with sweet candlelight

My romance doesn't need a walk along the beach
Hearing waves while enjoying the breeze
admiring the moon far beyond our reach

My romance doesn't need a walk at the park
in the lily-covered ponds feeding the ducks
singing along with the lovely larks

My romance doesn't have to take place at a good old church
making drawings on the bench of birch
along with the rhythms of the mountain birds

My romance doesn't need an exotic adventure
surviving jungles and mountain peaks together
ancient ruins and cities waiting us to discover..

My romance doesnt need a huge mansion and awesome summer house
Reading novels on the red velvet couch
waiting for sunrise beneath the milky clouds

My romance doesn't need honey, sugar or pie
My romance is the sweetest thing in life...
if my romance needs you...

valerie ='o'=

work

Never could i imagine myself at work. I am an unmotivated worker, i suppose....
I dun like a hectic lifestyle. I lost passion in being ambituos. I feel that in this world, there are many things waiting for me to do and to explore. I do not like to be tied up to schedule. I love freedom. But people said..it's not right to think like that.

Doing what you like is freedom and liking what you do is happiness. I'm doing things i like.. and i'm also liking the things i do. But i do not feel free... i feel clogged with heavy work load. Perhaps, this is what designers are feeling.

On occasion, i would like to sit by the window and stare at the row of street lights right infront of my bedroom. It has a nice view and I could easily see the campus and cyber night view from there. I felt hypnotised, or somewhat attracted to them. This lonely place.. with a few passing cars, could be a busy city in 10 years time from now. What will i be by then? Am i still stucked with work.. overtime everyday? Or will i let go everything here and leave this place like it never came to my life before?

Yes, maybe i should try to put down everything. Go somewhere else with my family... start a new life. This sounds great.

Joy with the nature

Having fun with friends is great. They can always crack jokes you will never imagine they would. Or do funny things to make everyone laugh. I feel very comfortable being with them. You don't have to worry about anything, because they accept the way you are, am i right?

My graduation trip was fun. I went with a bunch of crazy people to Tioman, which we were isolated from the hustle and bustle of the city life. There were even no line for Digi and Maxis, and so, communication to the outside world was immediately cut off! But, nevermind, we have public phone. :D

I hated the sun, but in Tioman, I love the sun. The island makes you love the sun. You see, there are white sandy beach for you to lie on, crystal clear sea water for you to swim with the fishes. Even though i do not know swimming, but i urge myself to be in the sea water. Because I knew the feeling would be fantastic. and yes, it is!

I snokerl, I fed the fishes with bread, I canoed, I played beach soccer hahaha.. I feel marvellous. And now i feel the real feeling of a great vacation.

Sometimes, when you look at the nature, you feel everything is so trival back there in the city. Human life is vulnerable. There's nothing for yo to grab on for your entire life. Everything comes and go. But nature stays.

~ a night I failed to be pig ~

Seriously, these few days I was so attracted to the night. As if it gave me an unspeakable power to do something which I hated to do, such as reading the notes. But no, my mind was wandering too far...
It's time for graduation...
something which I do not wish to happen, and it is happening now...
my heart weighs a thousand pound
I know it's true right from the start
that this fear will finally come
and grab away my happiness.
There are too many conflicts in my brain... which i think is overweight now :p
one part of it tell me I do no wish to leave this place,
a place that gave me a lot of memories...
another part of it tell me that, it's good to leave...
leave all the memories behind.
I'm still very unsure of my horoscope.
Some times I'm a Libra,
sometimes I'm a Scorpion
like now.. I'm more like a Libra... cos my brain is having conflict
with two different thinkings.
The time does not wait for us, nor could it stop for us to cherish
everything that we missed.
I really appreciate what I'm going through.
As I think there will never be a second time like this again.

周杰伦 2901

Incredible Jay

Today is Jay Incomparable 2005 concert in Malaysia.
By an interesthing twist of fate, i get to watch him in real, though he was a just a size of my thumb on the stage. By 8:44pm, with an explosive ray of light, the concert was started. The moment he stepped on stage and sang the infectious hip-hop tune, In The Name of the Father, he was in his element, oozing confidence and charisma. The atmosphere filled me with unspeakable excitement . I was charmed.

Followed by 止战之伤 my favourite song of his. The way he tried to portray the cruelty of war, the hopes of little children.. it was utterly awesome! I believe these elemets could hardly be found in the songs of other artists. A few minutes later, he came out with a new outfit. This time he sat on a stool, with two guitarist on each sides, and then a familiar tune started to float by....
Back to the past, was the song... My vision blurred as i could feel tears streaming down my cheeks. and i'm feeling absolUTELY HappY! Because he had caught my emotion! Haha, tears like that are hard to come by....

There were a few edited songs, such as titian edited with pikachu in it.. haha cute! cute! cute! Qing Tian intertwined with Rasa Sayang... oh myGod, you'll never imagine how... He is talented. He could make it as though Rasa Sayang was coming out from the song itself.

At the peak of the concert, he invited one of the member of Nan quan ma ma to played a duet of Chopin's Fantasia Impromtu. The fans cheered as they let their fingers wander dreamily over the keyboards. I listened attentively, nothing could describe my feeling as the piano strucked up, with such delicacy and precision as if God has sent Jay as his instrument for the night. The enthusiasm was indescribable! ! I told my friend, look, isn't he as great as Maksim? He grinned :D and I realised he too cheered for the touchy performance!

During Qi Li Xiang, he stepped forward, and said, 让我听听你们的声音 as he directed the microphone towards the crowd. His frantic fans almost stormed the platform where he stood. He, standing there, waving his hand and we waved back.
I walked slowly backwards, not willing to leave but afraid to missed the last train.
Tonight, i was horribly crazy, unexpectedly yappy, but emotionally contented, because Jay, your performance was great. I wanted to forget all my unhappiness, and remember the happiness in your song that you brought to us...

~Achievement...~

What does achievement mean to me?
Achievement is something i gain from my creation of masterpiece?
Achievement is something i get from what i have always wished for?
Achievement is an acknowledgement from all my hard work?
Achievement is also making a crying soul Smiles back to you
:(( ------> :)

I consider self satisfaction is also a kind of achievement. And even, making others smile i will feel contented.
Achievement means a gold medal for sport athletes
Achievement means an oscar award for actors and actresses
Achievement means seeing your child growing into a strong and healthy man

When you have found what the real meaning of achievement means to you
work hard and go for it.

Graduation

I like this song Graduation by Vitamin C
it meant alot to me...
because it was what my heart felt since the 10th month before graduation.
This is what I want to share

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change,
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back,
no more hanging out cuz were on a different track
and if you, got something that ya need to say,
you better say it right now cuz you dont have another day
Cuz we're moving on and we cant slow down
these memories are playing like a film without sound
and I keep thinking of that night in June,I didnt know much of love but it came too soon.
And there was me and you and we got real blue,stay at home talking on the telephone,
with me,
we'dget so excited and we'd get so scared, laughing at ourselfs thinking lifes not fair...
And this is how it feels...

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
Come whatever,
We will still beFriends Forever...
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money,
when we look back now will that joke still be funny?,
will we still remember everything we learned in schoool,
still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that its not goodbye,
Keep on thinkin its a time to fly,
And this is how it feels...

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow? (somehow)I guess I thought that this would never end,
AND SUDDENLY IT'S LIKE WE'RE WOMEN AND MEN
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Or will these memories fade when I leave this town?,
I keep, I keep thinking that its not goodbye
Keep on thinking its a time to fly...
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5 years ago, high school graduation doesn't mean anything to me.
Because, I know someday somehow I will still get to meet all my friends back...
we are all from the same place, nomatter how far we flew, we will still get back to our good old hometown.

5 years later, on convocation, are we still gonna meet each other after that?
Some will tell you, let fate decide...
Some will tell you, why not? If we want to

- = Moving Thoughts = -

Extracted from an email:
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will knowhow to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but manytimes we look so long on that closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. To be continued...

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had.
It's true we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return; just for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't, be content that it grows in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone, but it takes a life time to forget someone.

Don't go for looks, they can deceives, don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile :)

There are moments in life that you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dream and hug them for real!
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy...

Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried.. for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Loves begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who's smiling and everyone around you is crying...

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I hate grinding my teeth and holding back the tears when I really feel like crying. I know.. when I wipe away the tears, I'll have to be stronger... tougher. When sorrow was overwhelming... cry to let them go... and you'll feel better...
When happiness comes along, cherish every moments, someday you'll look back and smile.
Do you know a smile is contagious? Yes yes yes... hehe... so smile and spread the happiness!!! :) :) :) :) :)

*** CNYE Night ***

Tonight, there was 8th Chinese New Year Extravaganza Nigt (CNYE) in campus.
During that week, we had also a series of activities held by the Chinese Language Society (CLS)
such as tang yuen competition, Paper Art Class, Cultural exhibition, Spring Carnival etc. But i joint none of them :p

Yeah... this year i was rather weird, I'm not looking forward to chinese new year. Perhaps too many things happened recently and blew away my spring mood :p

I went to puduraya bus station to get my ticket back on Thursday afternoon for the Friday Haji break and forgot about the CNYE night.

When I reached campus, it was already 7pm, i rushed back home to get a shower and flied all the way to campus. It's good that we were still early :p when i reached there at 7:30....

After all the speeches by VIP, the drama started at 9:15, oh my god.. this is what we call the chinese culture ---LATE
Unlike the previous year, there was no dance performance or singing going on. It was solely drama , oh... :( then it must be pretty boring, feeling rather disappointed.

The storyline in this drama revolves around the issues pertaining superstition, chinese education and also the status of chinese female in the society.

The story begins with two neighbour of different background, Yip family was western minded and the Zhang family had very conservative oriental kind of thinking. Coincidently, both of the family were running pharmacy business. They always fight against each other and banned their children from mixing together.

However, the conflict of elder generation did not stop the younger ones from making friends. Instead, they were very good buddies. Both of their daughters, Hui Ping and Jacklyn were close friends, but Hui Ping was lesbian :p She was in love with Jacklyn and this had ruin their friendship. Because she was into girl, she could not accept Ah Mao who was going after her. Ah Mao was from a rich family but abit sot sot one keke... The traditional Yip family could not accept their daughter dating a girl and forbided her from going out as they were afraid this would bring a big news around the neighbourhood and damage their reputation.

At the mean time, both of their sons were best friends who always played together and encouraged each other to fight for their dreams. Unfortunately, their parents strongly against their ambition, saying that they had to go on with their family business and sticked to what they have planned for them. Finally Zhang's son had chosen to commit suicide to end his misery... From this event, the Yip's family had learnt a lesson and allowed their son to pursue his dream...

It was a touching story.... for the first time CLS had change a different perspective for the theme of 8th CNYE. But of cos, my mood was already down and watching this had given me more things to ponder... haha anyway... the drama was ok... not as interesthing as the 6th CNYE performance..

But, tonight is a night I will remember.